just being used for a certain time then just abandoned me right on the spot..
i admit i made some mistake but i'm a human after all.. i'm not a perfect human being that doesn't make any mistake..
the funny thing is everyone that i want to be closed too abandoned me in the end..i just don't wanna hurt them or anything..i just want them to be happy for the rest of their life.. if i do hurt them i just want them to hate me for the rest of their life and wasn't burden by my problems.. i know they got their own problems thats why i do something stupid..
even though they hate me i will always care for them till the day i die..
it's better for me to just stay away from everyone..but i can't.. i just don't have the resources to go away from here.. why in the world i have to meet them.. i just don't know why but God made it that way so i have to improvise everything in my life..
even thought i got fooled..i'm happy about it.. i got the chance to know a little about them..
they got their own friends anyway..
one more thing i don't understand in this world is why in the hell you contacted me in the first place if you were not talking to me.. it's just weird..
