do i burden everyone around me??
why when i act nicely you just don't accept it??
when i do everything according to the book it's all wrong..
when i'm doing in in my own way also it's wrong..
why stuff like this happen to me??
what is my purpose in this world??
it's hard to live like this..it's really hard..i don't like it..i got no one to go to when i have problems..not even my family..why?? just because i care about them..i care about everyone in my life..there are three people that i really care about but among the three there is one i really really care about..that person just change my life like a lot..among the three the one i really care change my life..really affect my life..i really want to take care of people around me..i don't want to make them mad or anything..but it's hard if they treat me like i'm just a tool..what can i do is just shut the hell up and smile..i can't do anything about it..if i try to change or fix it..it will only get worse..so to avoid that i just kept quite..i really want to talk to someone but everyone is just to damn busy..well..maybe this is my destiny..maybe fate wanted me to live this miserable life cause it know i can kept it in my heart till the day i die..>.<..if i think it that way it seem like my problems is just starting..it's gonna be worse in the future..i don't know..maybe..
