why??

why is it so hard to understand someone??

why is it so hard to make someone care??

why is it so hard to be alone??

why is it wrong to be someone else??

whenever i try to make someone understand they won't understand it no matter what..

and who wants to care about me anyway right..it just don't fit the picture to care someone like me..

i tried to be alone..but people just keep coming into my life..i don't wanna hurt anyone anymore but eventually i do hurt someone's feeling..

i tried to be someone else..but people insisted that i be myself..that is the worst thing that shouldn't have happen..

why everything in life not according to what i wanted?? i don't want to be rich.. i don't wanna be famous..

i just want to be alone and everyone to be happy.. i had it with hurting people feelings..i don't want to burden anyone anymore..

by the way blog..i'm sick..>.<.. my asthma is acting up and i have a headache.. at least i can tell something about my health..^_^..

life is weird..it goes way beyond any of your imagination.. something just happen in life without us plan about it.. for some people it goes the way they wanted.. for me none of it goes the way i imagine..i still don't know why i live in this world.. i mean the purpose me living in this world.. i'm not that religious type of person..all i do is make a lot of sin and burden and trouble everyone else.. i'm to tired to think what is my purpose already.. i hurt to many people.. i don't deserve to live in this world.. why can't i just die?? why can't an accident happen to me?? please.. it is just to hard to live this life.. please.. i really need some awful accident happen to me so that i would stop doing stupid stuff in this life.. if my heart is listening.. please stop beating.. for the sake of other people.. i'm begging you heart.. please stop..