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i don't even really know what happen.. i don't want to care about it actually.. but my heart say otherwise.. it is really sad for me.. i can't do anything anyway.. what's in the past it's better to be forgotten.. i have to move on.. when something is not meant to be it is just not meant to be.. if you are meant not to have friends just freaking accept it and move on.. there's nothing u can even do.. but it's hard when you experience it over and over and over and over again.. it become more painful through time.. sometime you just give up on everything.. that's why i always over thinking stuff before doing it cause i know the outcome will be the same no matter what.. i think it is really stupid to have friends.. why?? cause i know i will end up hurt.. i'm tired.. really tired..