it's impossible

i don't have any friends.. i don't want to have friends.. there is no use to have friends.. people won't understand the pain i felt.. they never felt what i felt before.. the pain of losing friends.. the pain of being used by others.. they never actually want to be friends with you.. they just used you until they accomplish their objective and they will disappear without saying anything.. they don't even freaking care about you.. no one will understand how you feel.. not even your family.. the only thing i wish now is everyone hate me.. i mean really hate me.. that would be peaceful for me.. i would love to be alone in this world.. that is the only solution i can think of.. it would be nice to stay in the dark and out of sight from everyone..