sadness

usually sleep can cure anything.. by why does it not want to make the sadness go away?? why is the pain still there?? how long am i going to be like this?? maybe i should have a don't care attitude where i don't have to care about anything.. maybe the pain will go away.. maybe the sadness will stop.. i won't ever know.. what can i actually do?? i also don't know.. how long have I been in this state of emotion.. i lost count also.. and i almost snap that day thinking there is no use being in this world.. i don't even want that incident to repeat itself again.. but if i were to stay in this state there is a possibilities that it will repeat itself again.. i have really nothing to say now..