Every smile hurts me more..

A smile is something that can make people happy..even if that person is having a very bad day seeing Someone else smiling makes you feel at ease..that's why I like to smile when I see other people..even if it hurts me at least other people will be at peace..or even happy..It's like an obligation for me to make everyone else feel happy even though it doesn't help me in my condition..It's just sad that I can't really feel any happiness for myself..It's very sad..