It's repeating again

I keep repeating the same stupid mistake all over again..why can't I just be quiet and live by myself rather than doing this thing again? ? I really can't stop being curious at everything right?? Haih.. why are you doing this to me my own body?? Why can't you just be alone by yourself and just isolate yourself from everyone?? Why must ask that sort of questions or cared too much of other people..can't you just ignore everyone?? You need to ignore everyone..don't ask anyone anything..Just keep quiet..shut your mouth god damn it..stop trying to know about people..The only thing you need to know is to get out of everyone's life and just like last time be used as a tool..there's no use trying to care about all the pain in your heart..cause at the end of the day you are just some tools for other people to use for their own benefit..your purpose to live is only to benefit other and not benefit yourself.. when people become successful you should be happy and continue to help others to be successful..