life is still the way it is

It's been very long since I last wrote in here..I guess it's been years..I know no one read this haha.. life is still the same as it was..It never change..I'm still stuck in this stupid cycle of suffering.. I just can't avoid it no matter how I tried I guess.. its still the same cycle all over again..I met with people..And they seem to be avoiding me no matter what..I guess I need to avoid people from now on..I really need to avoid everyone..maybe I can get out of this stupid cycle..its hard when you think that you finally got a friend that you can get close with they just think that you are weird and avoid you at all cost..It's just too painful to be stuck in this cycle..just needed someone to be there for you. .but no one is there..I know I'm weird..I know I cared too much.. I'm sorry everyone..I guess I really need to be locked up in isolation so no one will ever experience it ever again..I know I'll never be able to get away from this fate..so its better that I just isolate myself from everyone and just work for other sake..This life is weird that I'm still stuck in this state for a very long time..I don't remember since when I was like this..It's just sad that every time I smile I'm actually hurting inside..I never seem to be able to smile with a happy feelings inside..The chapter in life never change..and it won't change no matter what..This is what people called destiny or fate.. when you are decided to have a miserable life, you won't be able to get away from it no matter how far you go..It will always follow you until the day you die.. The morale of the story is just live the miserable life in isolation and don't try to bring anyone in it.. don't make other miserable..just keep that to your self..don't try to tell anyone..It will just backfired.. its better to be hurt alone..I'm sorry world..I can't be happy..I tried..but I can't. .I'm sorry..